What you say is ABSOLUTELY 100% TRUE regarding my actions on this board.

I will say that I have needed the guidance of you guys (you specifically) AND have felt that there was a neglect of the moderation that would have kept me in check.

Look, I truly sight the importance and impact of this website and its surrounding sites. I have not encountered a magnitude of such truthfulness and internal analysis as it relates to the exo-universe and the inner-universe.

Now, I have admitted my shortcomings as mentioned by you. And I know that you guys are not here to entertain or coddle to my individual needs/desires.

BUT, are you willing to admit that there has been a void of input by you and the staff for a quite a while?

The good news is you are now involved in discussions and I am seeking to learn and grow from you.

I give thankhs to this and the surrounding websites and will make an effort to curtail my aggressions. However, I also ask for tolerance of my seekings. There is supposed to be realization of ones developing at different levels. If these words would have been said to me previously, perhaps I would have been more mindful and not as belligerent for so long.

I must confess, you people have stimulated my heart and mind. I have been able to decipher things and make strides to overstanding myself as well as those in my life. I give credit to you and this web family.

So with your admonition, I will keep what you said in mind. I guess I need to turn it down a notch but if there was acknowledgment or refutal to some of my sights, I guess I would not have to "campaign" so hard.

Again, thankhs for the edification, guidance and insights.