Hi I appreciate your responses. I did just havwe a long talk with my Kingman and do feel alot better about the situation. I don't think he lies to me, but sometimes the truth hurts. I made a covenant and will not break it, but sometimes there needs to be some compromise right? I wonder how you guys think I should go about trying to compromise with him about things like going out. I want to go out and have fun and listen to music and it hurts my feelings when he doesn't want me to go with him. I know what it means when he doesn't want me with him. He has told me that he doesn't have sex with every woman he meets but that some only need his guidance. It is so hard as woman to believe that because women(being one myself) want more than just spiritual advice from a beautiful Rastaman. Anyway, like I said I am trying to get past my jealousies and just live my life and hopefully that means living with my King forever. Suzie