I am no initiate or follower of ifa, I just have come across it in my life and have an interest and love for it as part of the human experience.

Well I just have questions because I hear voices. Its a long story but I thought I sold my soul to satan, or that I was the anti christ. I did try and get knowledge form a voice I thought was satan, I did tell him I would go to hell and burn forever. These are some of the worst choices the I has ever made.

Needless to say my path has brought me to question the concepts of individuality and free will. I analyze my thoughts constantly second by second and wonder, is this my fate, are the thoughts that come and the actions that I do just what my individual SPARK, ME DOES?

i AM GETTING BETTER AT STILLING MY MIND BTW THROUGH MEDITATION AND DRUMMING (conga, african, caribbean drums) AND MARTIAL ARTS AND GENERAL FOCUS EXERCISES.

well my path was a bad one. I was just a bad kid. I didntl earn to be respectful and nice and gentle. I yelled and screamed when I didnt get what I want. I had rage and anger, I was a jerk. I still am not perfect and am working on it.

Anyway I am wondering what ifa thinks about redemption, and individuality and fate.

anyway im probably some evil condemned witch soul, aje or the other word that is for the bad malevolent forces in ifa cosmology.

btw i dont really like abrahamic thought unless it is something like sufism or jewish mysticism and caballah

im also interested in tao, yoga, palo, voudon and the kemetic sciences like ausar auset society, for example.

im interested in brain programming and injungian depth psychology.

i was introduced to orishas through trinidadian singer and calypsonian ella andall and I listen to lots of cuban, african, puerto rican and haitian and etc etc etc.. this is what got me in to this world ...

hope to learn and discuss...

thanks for offering this service to humaNITY

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I meditate and focus and analyze my personalities that arise in different aspects of the "real world"

"who am i right now?"

I look at the thoughts that arise in my head and the words I speak. and I try to cultivate a personality that I like instead of a personality I dont like.

Im sarcastic, rude, condescending, conniving, manipulative, greedy, gluttonous, lazy, lustful, vain, proud, angry, wrathful, jealous a lot with different people. usually in my head since now im working on being nice withy my words.

i was never all these things outward, but i was on the inside, judgmental, comparing, making hierarchies, comparing, thinking i was better or smarter or on some other level. im trying to control all of this and just live in the moment.

im getting better

some things bring out good in me

some things bring out bad in me

but when something brings out bad in me it is because i have trained my self to bring forward the badness in those situations.

my parents are the hardest to deal with but i am calmer and behaving better with them....

im into all this because i think its all connected by the human experience, the consciousness, our minds, and our myths....

i dont get how its a benevolent universe.

doesn't look like it.

it looks pretty crazy and weird.

and also beautiful, but it "aint all good"

not by a long shot, in my understanding.

of course outside of the realm of thought i guess the un i verse isnt "anything at all"

but what about the malevolent forces in yoruba thought, aje and the other one. what abotu the abd spirits.. disease, and "big trouble" (what i am in), what abotu the crossroads of the congo people... kalfou and paying back bawon samedi for the crimes commited...

what about yoruba hell. orun apadi

what about the judgment of olodumare or ogou?

and what is wrong with lucumi and palo?

its not connected?