Greetings Sparrow,

*** What do you guys think?

IS the consensus that this is my problem and my curse based on my evil and that basically im evil and it doesnt matter because im evil and evil things dont matter? ***

Clearly whatever *this* is, it's your problem, but nobody here that I know of has ever said all of that curse and evil business to you or supported it when you have asserted it as your own theory.

*** I actually dig that.***

Apparently as you keep returning to it; it must be a comforting thought to you...

***so is it true though?

Im gonna burn in hell no matter what?

because I cant tell whats real and not anymore.***

You have to choose what you want as your future and accept that there are some thing that you will not know. I told you long ago that it seems to I that you wallow in your ideas of being cursed and headed for hell as a way to avoid taking real responsibillity for building your life. In my experience we come to know what's real when we stop trying not to. I also think that Disciple has spent quite an extensive amount of words here trying to help you to see these and other things in response to your questions.

*** I have a feeling that people into "the opccult" or "Who know more aobut everything than me"

have a dark "you got what u want" attitude toward me and my idiotic idea to let "the devil" have my soul.***

Again, I think you're projecting your issues on to others. Curious use of the word *dark* in reference to the attitude of *ones who are into the occult* and / or *know more about everything than you do*. Who are these people and what makes their attitude *dark*? How does their *darkness* compare to your implicitly *light* attitude, characterized by a preoccupation with being cursed and having given your soul to the devil?