Here’s from a one with a speck in his own eye, trying to remove a log from his brother’s eye. You never sound like you ever even have one bright day while I “live up” for at least a few days before I come crashing down:
You say you are violent and your violent and hateful actions are directed at other people than yourself!
One who chooses to go or burn in hell can never know or understand the truth about God! (that is privilege of the righteous!)!
You talk of a healing fire. Did you ever consider an eternally destructive fire; whereby your suffering would never cease? And even when you thought you would find solace - in wrongdoing - it would only be short lived or an illusion (ie. wrongdoing itself would be your punishment since you desired it so much.) That would be an ‘afterlife’ of ‘death’!
At least right now you know that for some reason you life has not been taken from you (even while ones are losing their life in accidents and natural disasters like fire and earthquake); that means you still have a chance to change.
Wanting to know about evil can itself be destructive because you are actually polluting your mind.
Evil rythms petrify and chant death to righteousness and you might not even be aware that it is happening to you.
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